Then mid-month happened. I wore out to the point of fatigue and crashed. I was so wiped I slept through my alarm for several days and then apparently injured or severely agitated something in my left quad ;from the way I sit and hold my son. I haven't run in a week at this point, but I decided after seeing a video on the best stretch for IT band I dd it and was feeling much better. Today was the day I'd reboot. About slightly over a mile away from home the pain in my left thigh and groin area began to throttle my performance. Shortly after it began I was dealing with stabbing pains and had to resort to walking the rest of the way home. Needless to say I am very disappointed and I'm afraid my mileage will slip away from me. I don't want to go back where I started from. I signed up for my 3rd Hidden Treasures 5K in September and the Color Run in D.C. in October. I want my PR this year. Where do I go from here? I think I may need to see a physical therapist and take it from there. I guess in my free time.
Family life has been crazy too. We are quickly approaching the 1st birthday for our son Grady, but it's also the 1 year anniversary of the loss of his brother Cullen. The mixed bag of emotions. The being strong part, sort of. The hardest part is trying to be a rock for my wife, when I was the complete mess last year. She was my support and should have had me to lean on. I was down and out. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about Cullen. How much I miss him and that the 5 hours were not long enough. How life's not fair.
Here I am at 10:00pm, on June 28th and I'm finally writing this blog. I have not been able to run in a very long time. Grady and Cullen's first birthday just passed last weekend. The party was fun, and we ended with a balloon release for Cullen. This day was the first time I've completely shut down. I have been in a daze for the last week or so. I almost feel like I'm not here. I miss my runs. It was my outlet and I feel like it helped me deal with my sons death. Now I am a walking disaster. I am going to attempt to run tomorrow morning if I can muster the strength to get up. It's a little difficult when you are up and down throughout the night. if it's not one kid it's another. it seems like there isn't a true peaceful night in my home.
I am hoping to be able to run and not have my pain come back. I never got into the doctor, but my chiropractor believes I did a slow tear of my quad muscle from the way I had been sitting and holding Grady for months. I seem to be doing better, but I can tell you one thing........bye bye my mileage. See you in a couple of months. I am hoping to get back in shape for the Hidden Treasures 5K in September and the Color Run in D.C. in October. I will get to run with my daughter again soon at the local shoe store 5K this fall too. I am excited about that. Well, I am hoping to be able to post an update in a few weeks with some mileage numbers listed. Until then, thanks for reading and if you ever want to give me a shout out, go for it. It's been awful lately when you feel like there are few who understand you, or that let you know they do anyhow. I could use some motivation, fire away. Thank you.
Here I am at 10:00pm, on June 28th and I'm finally writing this blog. I have not been able to run in a very long time. Grady and Cullen's first birthday just passed last weekend. The party was fun, and we ended with a balloon release for Cullen. This day was the first time I've completely shut down. I have been in a daze for the last week or so. I almost feel like I'm not here. I miss my runs. It was my outlet and I feel like it helped me deal with my sons death. Now I am a walking disaster. I am going to attempt to run tomorrow morning if I can muster the strength to get up. It's a little difficult when you are up and down throughout the night. if it's not one kid it's another. it seems like there isn't a true peaceful night in my home.
I am hoping to be able to run and not have my pain come back. I never got into the doctor, but my chiropractor believes I did a slow tear of my quad muscle from the way I had been sitting and holding Grady for months. I seem to be doing better, but I can tell you one thing........bye bye my mileage. See you in a couple of months. I am hoping to get back in shape for the Hidden Treasures 5K in September and the Color Run in D.C. in October. I will get to run with my daughter again soon at the local shoe store 5K this fall too. I am excited about that. Well, I am hoping to be able to post an update in a few weeks with some mileage numbers listed. Until then, thanks for reading and if you ever want to give me a shout out, go for it. It's been awful lately when you feel like there are few who understand you, or that let you know they do anyhow. I could use some motivation, fire away. Thank you.
