Awesome run!

Well I got to run yesterday morning and had an awesome pace. I'm probably going to miss todays run and i'll do a 2 miler tomorrow before heading to Annapolis. I have to run because I think this hurricane is going to screw up this weekends training. I may just be able to at least match last years run.

9/9/11
Well I'm going to be a glutton for punishment and do my 3 mile run tomorrow morning and 40 minute long run Sunday...weather pending.

Getting back up!

Well I have been back running for about 3 weeks now. I had a great run this morning. Every time I jog I have the chance to clear my mind completely and rejuvenate myself. It has been very difficult since the loss of Cullen. I had a run a couple of weeks ago where I found myself unable to stop thinking about him as I ran with tears streaming down my face. I just want to run until it doesn't hurt anymore, but that will never happen. I am training for the Hidden Treasures 5K on September 25th. This will be my 2nd time running it and I am hoping I am able to beat last years time, but more importantly, I look forward to my family waiting for me at the finish line. I am also looking forward to my next weigh in since I have gained about 20 lbs in the last few months and I need to get it back off. Thats it for now. Tomorrow is a new day and another run, but it's an easy 25-35 minutes.

:(

Well, I am not doing Warrior Dash. It really sucks being so far from family. I hate it. I was looking forward to this for months. 70 bucks down the drain I don't even get my shirt or helmet that was paid for. What a disappointment. I have't been this down in a very long time. I am not doing things right and I feel like I am losing everything. My hobby is disappearing and I am becoming a mean person. My anger is coming back. It scares me because Allison and the girls have never seen my real temper. I don't know what to do or who I am any more. All I do know is that they don't deserve the nasty bitterness that I exhibit lately. These two babies that are coming are scaring me and making me happy all at once. I am stressed out. I also get to start day shift at work June 1st, but I have a feeling it won't last long because if somebody else leaves I'll be right back to midnights. FML. I don't know anything any more. I have nobody to talk to and nowhere to go. Why me? What did I do to deserve this? WHy can't I be the husband and father these people deserve? I don't know. Ugh. I hate myself for what I am becoming.

Wednesday April 20, 2011- Family jog!

Well today I ran with the girls and walked and ran alone.  Covered 3.88 miles in 1 hour. It was darn hot that's for sure.  We ran .75 miles with wagon in tow, Stella ran most of that in her uniform again.  She's too funny.  I pulled them the remainder of the .75 miles and walked about a half loop before dropping them off.  Then I ran about 2.5 miles alone, which included some walking since I have a lot of rust to get out of my system.  Then I picked them up at the house, redressed G and walked another loop.   It was a fun day.  This inner tube around my gut has got to go.  And man do I ever have to readjust to warmer weather running again.   I can tell it's been too long.  Overall it felt really good to start getting out there this week.  Warrior Dash is 33 days away.

Running with the girls.

I took the girls out on a short after dinner jog. We did .72 of a mile and Stella ran the whole way in her uniform for school and her new sneakers. I pulled G in the red wagon while jogging.  G did jog with us for a little bit.  She was cute.  Stella thought we were "racing " so I had to put a little more effort into it at times.  Fun times.  Stella wanted to run more but G was done.  Maybe next time.  I am excited to have a running buddy.

See Stella Run!

I would like to thank everyone that donated to Stella's school for the Race for Education.  I'm very proud of my big little girl.  She won first place for girls in her kindergarten class by running the most laps around a field slightly larger than a soccer field.  She ran 14.  Go stella.  I may have a running partner. 

My family!

Well, I started my day with crazy case loads at work, but ended my morning getting to come home to my family.  I love coming home
to my beautiful wife and gorgeous daughters.  We went and saw our soon arriving sons on an ultrasound screen shortly after I got home.  I ended the day with a little exercise by  
Taking G and Stella on a neighborhood walk/ jog.  They enjoy being pulled in a wagon while I jog, even though it wasn't far or long.  I love my life!